How would you define your home?
I traveled back to the States last week and wish that I never had to leave. While I was there, I felt so much more at eased, relaxed and daily life seemed so good. I guess it's a skewed view since I was on vacation and there's no deadline or work. In some ways, the whole trip was like homecoming for me.
I felt comfortable there. I knew where things were, how to get to places, and even when I didn't, it's so easy for me to navigate. The weirdest thing was that I didn't miss Hong Kong at all. Partially I think it's because I envy everyone's work schedule there, well, except for Pete's cousin's boyfriend who's an iBanker and came home at 6 in the morning to go to work 3 hours later, meaning he worked for 21 hours that day. Generally speaking, people go to work at around 9 +/- 30mins and get off work at around 5. There's so much more time to do what you want, like sit at one of the many outdoor cafes till it's time to go home. Quality of living in Hong Kong sucks so much in comparison! By the time I get off work at 7, I'm already exhausted. I go home, have dinner and sleep. Repeat.
When we went back to our apartment, I was overwhelmed. Everything stayed the same but I knew so much had changed. I knew where to get my clothes, food, mugs etc. I still have my facial products there, my letters, my postcards! I sat on the couch and starting crying. This is my home. It's so familiar yet it seems like I left the apartment in a hurry and didn't have time to pack. I think it's similar to viewing Pompeii, without the ash.
The night before my flight back to Hong Kong, I was getting desperate and even considered the idea of getting eloped, Las Vegas style, just to stay there. Alas, I wasn't in Vegas and marriage registries weren't open for 24 hours. In a way, it's good for me, it put me back into reality. I have a job, another life somewhere else. I will need to be a grown up and settle everything before I move again. I will need to be responsible and can't just suddenly leave everything. *sigh* Why can't life be like TV/ movies?
In order for me to stop thinking about this trip, I have started planning our trip to UK! Woot! So excited already.
Will write a play by play of my trip later. Wetland Park with Seo later today :D
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ReplyDeleteWoohoo, new blog! There should be a blog equivalent of a housewarming party :D
Marriage registries should be like 24/7 supermarkets... outside Vegas, I mean.
For me, and many people, money is the constraint. Being a 'grown-up' is overrated. As long as I have financial independence I figure I can do whatever I want...
No idea where home is. My main problem is that the place my parents are, the place I am most comfortable, and the place I know best are all different.